:) Thank you. That’s really a beautiful sentiment, and I thank you for putting the time in to show your care to someone you don’t even know. That means a lot to me and about you.

However, like I said to the anon, I understand that this is difficult for people to understand. I’m in a constant battle trying to hide this from the people I love, because I’m already experiencing exactly how much my decisions hurt them… it breaks my heart. I hate lying about everything. Pretending that I’m okay. And I hate being so damn depressed.

But at this point, I have to keep going. Believe me, I’ve made the decision to “get better” before. I see a therapist once a week. It just isn’t as easy as people think it is.

But I’m doing this for me. Because I am weirdly addicted to this sickness. It keeps me going. And I refuse to fail myself. I can’t stand it when I fail.

I just want to be happy, and this is the path that has chosen me.